When I close my eyes...

I can see your face. My heart calls out, wanting you with me in this special place.

I can feel your arms holding
me tight, I long to snuggle close and feel all my fears take flight.

I can see your smile,
Reminding me to be patient
for just a little while.

I can feel your gentle touch. Shivers run over my skin, I miss you so much.

I can see the love in your eyes for me, Shining brightly where all who care to look can see.

I can feel your presence surrounding me, holding me, loving me.
And I know deep in my heart our love was meant to be..


This one goes out to my soulmate.... I Love You!!!

Lucky Number Seven

Seven things I plan to do before I die:
1. Travel
2. swim with the dolphins
3. skydive
4. be in a seat at the World Series of Poker on T.V.
5. buy a bigger house
6. own a Lamborghini Countach
7. meet Ellen Degeneres or Drew Barrymoore

Seven things I can do:
1. Good cook
2. Hard worker
3. good lover
4. Be a good friend
5. play poker
6. Learn quickly
7. fast eye and hand coordination

Seven things I cannot do:
1. Anything requiring construction tools
2. pay bills on time
3. communicate
4. Budget/save money
5. type fast without looking
6. Be on time. (I'm too early or late)
7. Remember. My memory's shot.

Seven things that I find attractive in a woman:
1. great sense of humor to make me laugh
2. spontaneous
3. ability to listen
4. eyes and smile
5. be faithful and loving
6. being a little jealous
7. have a hint of romantic side and a bad girl side

Seven things I say most often:
1. I Love You
2. Be careful
3. Have a good day
4. blinds are up
5. Stop it
6. Man
7. Is it good (meaning my cooking)

Seven celebrity crushes:
1. Drew Barrymoore
2. Ellen Degeneres
3. Sophia Bush
4. Kim Stolz
5. Kate Moennig
6. Iyari Limon
7. Kristanna Loken

Tag Your It

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Birth date: 05-04-74
Current status: married
Eye colour: Blue
Hair colour: Blondish-Brown
Righty or Lefty: Righty.
Zodiac Sign: Tauraus

Layer Two: On The Inside
your fears: spiders, snakes and not being loved
Your weaknesses: My soulmate and son
Your perfect pizza: chicken ranch pizza

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: gotta get my son off to school
Your bedtime: midnightish
Your most missed memory: being young with no worries

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
Single or group dates: Both
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton tea or Nestea: Lipton tea
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino only if it is frozen

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: Yes
Curse: Yes.
Take a shower: Yes.
Have a crush: Yes.
Think you've been in love: Yep
School: No
Want to get married: Already am to the love of my life
Believe in yourself: At times.
Think you're a health-freak: try to be

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Drank alcohol: Yes.
Gone to the mall: Yes.
Been on stage: No
Eaten sushi: Never
Dyed your hair: Yes

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER?
Played a stripping game: Yes
Changed who you were to fit in: sometimes but didn't like the results

LAYER EIGHT: AGE YOU'RE HOPING TO.
Get married: already am
Retire: yes

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye colour: Brown.
Best hair colour: Brown.
Short or long hair: I'm okay with anything.

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 minute ago: looking in my wordpad at stuff
1 hour ago: eating dinner
4.5 hours ago: watching One Tree Hill
1 month ago: hosting poker tournaments
1 year ago: working as a waitress

LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I love: my family
I feel: great
I hate: noone
I miss: my grandma (nannie)
I need: to feel loved

LAYER TWELVE: TAG 3 PEOPLE.
NUMBER ONE! ; grumpyjack
NUMBER TWO! ; sassyfemme
NUMBER THREE! ; kfbear

Recipe Time

Spider's Nest Dip

2 (8-ounce) package cream cheese
1 (1.25-ounce) package taco seasoning mix
1 1/2 cups sour cream
1 (16-ounce) can black refried beans
1 (12-ounce) package shredded Mexican cheese
1/2 cup fresh chunky salsa (from your grocery's deli section)
1 (2.25-ounce) can chopped black olives
1 cup guacamole (from your grocery's deli section)
1 (15-ounce) can whole black beans, drained and rinsed
4 to 6 bags blue tortilla chips

In a small bowl, mix cream cheese and 1/2 packet of taco seasoning with 1 cup of the sour cream (hold the rest of the sour cream to decorate). Set mixture aside.

Spread a thin layer of refried beans in the bottom of a microwaveable serving dish. Add a layer of shredded cheese. Heat dish in microwave for 1 minute, until cheese is slightly melted.

Drain the salsa and layer it over the cheese. Drain the olives and layer over the salsa. Add a layer of the sour cream mixture. Add a layer of guacamole.

To decorate the top, spoon a medium sized dollop of sour cream in the center. This is the spider's "nest."

Spoon the rest of the sour cream into an air-tight bag. Cut a very small piece out of 1 of the bottom corners of the bag and, starting at the outer edge of the dip, pipe a thin circle around the perimeter. Create another circle half way between the perimeter circle and the center dollop, creating 3 circles.

Using a knife blade, toothpick or skewer, drag a thin line of the sour cream from the "nest" outward toward the edge of the dish. Continue making lines all around the "nest" to complete the spider web design. Position whole black beans onto the sour cream "web."

Embellish with plastic decorative spiders. Serve with a bowl of blue tortilla chips, and watch your guests scurry to get a bite!

More About Me

Four Jobs You've Had In Your Life:
1. Manager at Pizza Hut
2. bartender/waitress
3. cook/dishwasher
4. poker host

Four Movies You'd Watch Over and Over
1. Cocktail
2. Bound
3. If These Walls Could Talk Too
4. Grease 1 and 2

Four Places You Have Lived
1. Germany
2. Missouri
3.
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Four TV Shows You Love to Watch
1. Survivor
2. Big Brother
3. The L word
4. Amazing Race

Four Places You've Been On Vacation
1. Colorado (Denver to Vail and everywhere in between)
2. Branson, Missouri
3. Lake of the Ozarks, Missouri
4. Las Vegas, NV

Four Websites You Visit Daily
1. my so called lesbian life.
2. lesbianlifestyle
3. pokercraze
4. Big Question

Four of Your Favorite Foods
1. Tacos
2. Mint chocolate chip ice-cream
3. cool ranch doritos and bean dip
4. pretty much anything mexican

Four Places You'd Rather Be Right Now
1. Denver,Colorado
2. Jamacia
3. Vail, Colorado
4. California

A little about me

1. What time did you get up this morning? 8 am
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Garfield Two
4. What is your favorite TV show? American Idol, Survivor, Big Brother, any reality show
5. What did you have for breakfast? waffels
6. What is your middle name? Ann
7. Favorite cuisine? mexican food
8. What foods do you dislike? spinach and seafood
9. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream? Mint Chocolate Chip
10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? the one my baby made me with all my favs right now
11. What kind of car do you drive? 1996 Ford Escort
12. Favorite sandwich? Ham and Cheese on a wheat bun
13. What characteristic do you despise? unfaithfulness
14. Favorite item of clothing? flip flops
15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Jamacai
16. What color is your bathroom? blue
17. Favorite brand of clothing? anything comfortable
18. Where would you retire to? Colorado
19. Favorite time of day? Night time
20. What was your most memorable birthday? my 30th
21. Where were you born? North Kansas City, Missouri
22. Favorite sport to watch? Football, Texas holdem tournaments and hockey
25. What fabric detergent do you use? mountain breeze
26. When is your birthday? May 4th
28. What is your shoe size? 7
29. What did you want to be when you were little? an accountant
30. What are you doing today? hanging out
31. What did you do last night? went to dinner with family
32. What are you most proud of? My Family
33. Your favorite childhood memory? having no worries and just living life to the fullest