Dedicated to my baby....

I am in love and I want my baby to know that I am in love with her so deeply. So this one is for you baby.

I ne’er was struck before that hour
With love so sudden and so sweet.
Her face it bloomed like a sweet flower
And stole my heart away complete.

My face turned pale, a deadly pale.
My legs refused to walk away,
And when she looked what could I ail
My life and all seemed turned to clay.

And then my blood rushed to my face
And took my eyesight quite away.
The trees and bushes round the place
Seemed midnight at noonday.

I could not see a single thing,
Words from my eyes did start.
They spoke as chords do from the string,
And blood burnt round my heart.

Are flowers the winter’s choice
Is love’s bed always snow
She seemed to hear my silent voice
Not love appeals to know.

I never saw so sweet a face
As that I stood before.
My heart has left its dwelling place
And can return no more.

...Another one just for my baby.

When I close my eyes...

I can see your face.
My heart calls out, wanting you with me in this special place.

I can feel your arms holding me tight,
I long to snuggle close and feel all my fears take flight.

I can see your smile,
Reminding me to be patient for just a little while.

I can feel your gentle touch.
Shivers run over my skin, I miss you so much.

I can see the love in your eyes for me,
Shining brightly where all who care to look can see.

I can feel your presence surrounding me, holding me, loving me.
And I know deep in my heart our love was meant to be..



I just wanted you and the whole world of bloggers to know how much I am in love with you. You are the best and I don't tell you enough how special you are to me. Thanks for loving me and being who you are. I LOVE YOU!!

Favorites and more

10 Favorites FavoriteSeason:Fall
Favorite Sport: volleyball
Favorite Time: early evening
Favorite Color: purple and dark blue
Favorite Actor: Keanu Reeves and John Cusack
Favorite Actress: Drew Barrymoore and Sandra Bullock
Favorite Ice Cream: mint chocolate chip
Favorite Food: mexican anything
Favorite Drink: Pepsi
Favorite Place: at a card table, lol

9 Currents
Current Feeling: a little stomach sick
Current Underwear Color: black
Current Windows Open: Blogger, yahoo messenger, my blog, yahoo mail, canasta
Current Drink: pepsi
Current Time: 10:50 pm
Current Mobile(s) Used: sprint
Current Show on TV: monday night football (steelers and colts)
Current Thought: how much I love my partner in life

8 Firsts
First Nickname:burger butts
First Kiss: in my snadbox in the backyard when I was in kindergarden
First Crush:Rocky Dirk
First Best Friend: Debbie Mcgee
First Vehicle I drove: Mercury Comet
First Job: Showbiz (now known as Chuckie Cheese) as a cook
First Movie: The first I remember was Annie
First Pet: a white furry cat named Snowball
First Shave: When I was thirteen I think

7 Lasts
Last Drink : pepsi
Last Kiss: My baby
Last Time: three days ago
Last Time Shaved: tonight in the shower
Last Web Site Visited: drewropa.com
Last Movie Watched: Badder Santa
Last Pill I Had: two advils today at 2pm

6 Have You Evers
Have You Ever Broken the Law: Yes
Have You Ever Been Drunk: Yes
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: no
Have You Ever Been in the Middle/Close to Gunfire or Bomb Blast: no
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope but close to it
Have You Ever Broken Anyone's Heart: yes


5 Things
Things You Can Hear Right Now: my baby playing snowball fight on her computer and football on t.v.
Things on Your Bed: Sheet, comforter, pillows, cell phones and the remote
Things You Ate Today: leftover turkey on wheat bread and mayo for lunch, cinnamon popcorn and four cheese chicken helper for dinner
Things You Can’t Live Without: my partner, son, food, cards, and friends
Things You Do When You Are Bored: play on the computer, clean, watch t.v.


4 Places You Have Been today: school to drop off and pick up son, time warner cable to pay bill, sprint to pay bill, Wal-mart


3 Things On Your Desk Right Now: Pepsi, paperclips, pen


2 Choices Black or White: black
Hot or Cold: hot


1 Thing You Want To Do Before You Die: swim with the dolphins on a white sandy beach in jamaica

Would like to see everyone elses answers on there blog. Pass it around and let me know if you do it in my comments.

Horoscopes

I am a Taurus, born on the 4th day of May. I am stubborn as a bull, but also very loveable. I am with a Libra. The scales and also very loveable. Here is what I found on our compatibility.

When Taurus and Libra come together in a love affair, it can be the unification of two halves of a whole. These two Signs are thought of as being karmically linked. They're both looking for security in a relationship and they share a love of art, poetry and culture. This relationship may start slowly as, on the surface, they might have few common interests. However, once they understand one another they may learn they have much more in common than was first apparent.

Taurus and Libra both have a love for the arts. They appreciate fine dining and theater, collecting art and music. Pleasure -- physical, aesthetic -- is a premium for these two Signs. They both love to woo and be wooed; courtship is a necessary part of any romantic relationship for them, and since they both have this need, they fit well together. Taurus appreciates Libra's charm; if stubborn Taurus doesn't get their way, diplomatic Libra is able to smooth things over and keep the peace. Libra appreciates the luxuries that sensual Taurus provides them. They also have much to teach one another: Libra can help Taurus see the different sides of a situation, and Taurus can help Libra overcome their notorious indecision.

Both Taurus and Libra are ruled by the Planet Venus (Love and Money). These partners share a love of beauty, luxury, love and romance. Libra in particular is keen on balance; both partners have charming personalities and desire harmony in their personal relationships. Venus's influence can create problems as well, however; these two Signs can both tend toward laziness and snobbery, Taurus based on possessions and Libra based on intellect.

Taurus is an Earth Sign and Libra is an Air Sign. Taurus gets through life relying on their innate practicality, while Libra relies on intellectual exploration. Taurus asks, "How will this help me achieve my goals in life?" Libra, on the other hand, focuses on intellectual stimuli, whether it's practical or not. Conflicts can arise in this relationship if Taurus seems too possessive or Libra seems too flirtatious and social. Sometimes they just don't quite understand where the other is coming from. If they want theirs to be a long-lasting relationship, they must learn to accept that their views of the world are different in tone and focus.

Taurus is a Fixed Sign and Libra is a Cardinal Sign. In general in this relationship, Libra initiates it and Taurus keeps it going. A Fixed Sign won't budge, and Libra needs to understand the Bull's stubborn tendency. With some gentle persuasion, anything is possible -- and there is no Sign more gifted at gentle, subtle persuasion and charm than Libra. On the other hand, Libra's indecision may irritate direct, to-the-point Taurus. As long as Taurus tones down the tendency to declare that their way is the only acceptable way to do or see something, Libra can accept Taurus's decisions.

What's the best aspect of the Taurus-Libra relationship? Their shared love of pleasure, beauty and culture. Aesthetics are integral to both partners, and their similar tastes and loves make theirs a relationship of great romance and harmony.

Pretty interesting. I wish I knew how the came up with this stuff. It's amzing how right on this stuff really is. You know. Weird.

I have been tagged. So there for I have to tell you more about myself. Enjoy

10 years ago: I was an assistant manager for Pizza Hut

5 years ago: I was still a manager for Pizza hut and just had met my partner and learned that I was gay

1 year ago: I started a new job as a waitress at a restaraunt

Yesterday: we put up all the christmas decorations and I worked

Today: we slept in and then went and had turkey dinner at both families

Tomorrow: going to go shopping for the biggest shopping day of the year (crazy)


5 snacks i enjoy: (only 5?)
1. cool ranch doritos and bean dip
2. strawberries and whip cream
3. cheese and crackers
4. pumpernickel bread and ranch
5. carrots

5 bands that i know the lyrics of most of their songs:
1. Def Leppard
2. Lita Ford
3. Ozzy Osbourne
4. Metallica
5. Guns and Roses

5 things i would do with $100,000,000:
1. Have more kids or adopt
2. Buy a new home for our family
3. Fix our mustang up and buy us a truck
4. Move to the mountains
5. travel the world and go swimming with the dolphins

5 locations I want to run away to
1. Colorado
2. Jamacia
3. Colorado
4. Canada
5. Colorado

5 bad habits i have:
1. more often than not, not finishing what i start
2. do not take critiscm to well
3. playing on the computer to much, LOL
4. holding grudges
5. drinking pop

5 things i like doing:
1. playing cards
2. shopping
3. working - weird I know
4. listening to music
5. playing on the computer

5 things i would never wear:
1. high heels
2. knee high socks
3. tight shirts
4. socks with sandles
5. nose ring

5 tv shows i like:
1."reality" tv - pick any, we probably are watching them
2. Roseanne
3. Ghost Whisper
4. Guiding Light
5. World Poker Tour

5 movies i like: (i'll have to do the virginia woolf stream of consciousness thing and quickly type the first 5 that come to mind ...)
1. Cocktail
2. Never Been Kissed
3. Grease
4. If These Walls Could Talk 2
5. Bound

5 famous people i'd like to meet:
1. Drew Barrymore
2. Sandra Bullock
3. Melissa Ethridge
4. Ellen Degeneres
5. Def Leppard's band

5 biggest joys at the moment:
1. My partner
2. My son
3. life
4. love
5. being healthy

5 last books i read:
1. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's stone
2. Cosmo
3. People magazine
4. Badass girls guide to poker
5. Melissa Ethridge Bio

I am not going to tag anyone. If you want to do the list, just let me know in my comments that you did it.

Hope to see your answers soon.

Poem Time

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and
an entire lifetime to forget them.

For instance, even if today is painful
And yesterday's wounds remain
I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on

I cannot be reborn
But I can change as I go on, so
Let's stay together always


Just thought I would share how I am feeling now with a poem I love.

Bored

[1] copy and paste into your livejournal/xanga
[2] bold any that pertain to you

01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I watch more tv than I used to.
03. I love olives.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I own lots of books.
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
07. I love to play video games.
08. I've tried marijuana.
09. I've watched porn movies.
10. I have been in a threesome.
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
13. I have acne free skin. (mostly anyway)
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
15. I curse frequently.(I try not to)
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have a hobby.
18. I've been told I have a nice butt.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
20. I'm really, really smart. I'm not a genius, just smart.
21. I've never broken someone else's bones.
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
23. I love rain.And thunder
24. I'm paranoid at most times.
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar free.
26. I need money right now.who doesn't
27. I love sushi.
28. I talk really, really fast.
29. I have fresh breath in the morning.yeah right
30. I have semi-long hair.
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister.
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S. no but my mom was pregnant with me in Germany
34. I shave my legs.
35. I have a twin.
36. I couldn't survive without caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months
40. I know how to do cornrows...I have done short ones and they are not the best
41. I am usually pessimistic.
42. I have mood swings.
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
45. I have cheated on a significant other.
46. I have a hidden talent.
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I've had.
48. I think that I'm popular.
49. I am currently single.
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
51. I enjoy talking on the phone.
52. I practically live in PJ pants.
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat.
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I'm obsessed with my blog.
58. I dont hate anyone.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer.
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone.
63. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
67. I have never been in a real relationship before.
68. I've rejected someone before.
69. I've graduated college.
70. I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
71. I want to have children in the future.Have a son
72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I've had the cops called on me before.
74. I bite my nails.
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club. not a member just like him
76. I'm not allergic to anything.
77. I have a lot to learn.
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger...
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
82. I have at least 25 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol before.
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
85. I own the "South Park" movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on my blog. (right now)
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum...kid as in like 12 ish
88. I enjoy country music.
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can.Tape them to watch them later if I cant
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
98. I have dated a close friend's ex.
99. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. I've had a crush on somebody I've never met.
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument...kind not really any more
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating with something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in 'lust' more than in 'love.'
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the TV show "Lost."
111. I think Beyblades is the coolest show in coolsville.
112. There are more things I could be better at, if only I tried harder.
113. Sometimes I don't like food.
114. I worry sometimes that I'm not being the best friend I could be to the people I care about.
115. I desperately want people to respect me, but it rarely happens.
116. I have never been able to say anything positive about myself and truly believe it.
117. I am bisexual.I am Gay
118. I think Australian accents are very attractive.
119. I'm very neurotic and suffer from acute paranoia.
120. I speak another language besides English. (speak it? yes. fluently? no.)
121. I joke about eating, shaking, and kicking babies
122. I'm most likely to spend my money on music.
123. I've never built a snowman.
124. I celebrate my pets birthdays.

Whats up

1. Name as it appears on birth certificate: you don't honestly expect me to answer this, right?
2. Nicknames:burger butts when I was younger none now really
3. Place of Birth: Missouri
4. Favorite food: mexican
5. Ever been to Africa: No, but I hope to go someday
6. Love someone so much it hurts: Heck yeah, right now I am in the best relationship with the one I love so deeply
7. Been in a car accident: yep, enough for me. 1 was my fault coming around a curve in there lane and got hit, then one at a gas station a guy hit me, then when i was younger my mom got hit on the way taking us kids to school, and once got rear ended, then I got side swiped by a girl and she took off. I had to chase her down. I thinks thats it.
8. Croutons or bacon bits: bacon bits
9. Favorite day of the week: Sundays-football season
10. Favorite restaurant: Las Corrals mexican
11. Favorite sport to watch: football, hockey and poker
12. Favorite drink for summer: Amaretto Sours and Pepsi
13. Favorite ice cream: mint chocolate chip
14. Disney or Warner Bros. : Warner Bros, love Taz
15. Favorite fast food restaurant: Taco Bell
16. What Color is your bedroom carpet: Beige/brown mixed
17. How many times did you fail your driver's test: once, cant parelell park
18. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail: From grandma
19. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card: Walmart
20. What do you do most often when you are bored: watch tv or play on the computer
21. What time is Bedtime: midnightish
24. Favorite TV shows: ghost whisper and all reality shows
25. Last person/s you went to dinner with: my partner and son
26. Ford or Chevy: Ford
27. What are you listening to right now: cartoons
28. What is your favorite color: Purple and dark blue
29. Lake, ocean or river: Lake (no sharks or jellyfish) to swim in but I love the ocean
30. How many tattoos do you have? none yet but hopefully I will be getting one soon
31. Have you ever run out of gas: Yes a couple of times

Hey everyone, Im still around

Stuff About Me... Everyone should share a little about themselves. Save and post your answers on your blog.

1. What time did you get up this morning? noon
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? The Fog
4. What's your favorite TV show? Survivor, Amazing Race, Ghost whisper, Big Brother, Americas Next Top Model any reality shows. I am hooked
5. What did you have for breakfast? Pumpernickle bread and ranch
6. What's your favorite cuisine? mexican food, definitly my fav
7. What foods do you dislike? raw tomatoes, spinach, asparagus, seafood
8. What is your favorite chip flavor? Cool Ranch Doritos with bean dip
9. What's your favorite CD at the moment? Def Leppard and Melisa Etheridge right now
10. What kind of car do you drive?1996 white ford escort
11. Favorite sandwich? Turkey and swiss on wheat heated up
12. What characteristics do you despise? being negative all the time and making fun of others
13. Favorite item of clothing? shorts and t-shirts
14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go? Jamica to swim with the dolphins
15. What color is your bathroom(s)? Blue walls and dolphin decor
16. Favorite brand of clothing? anything less expensive
17. Where would you retire to: Colorado in the mountains
18. Favorite time of the day? the early evening
19. What was your most memorable birthday? my 30th. My baby made it special
20. Where were you born? Kansas City, Missouri
21. Favorite sport to watch? Hockey, Football and Poker!!!!!
22. Were you named after anyone? An actress
23. Do you wish on stars? yessssssss
24. When did you last cry? tonight, thinking about my moms health
25. Do you like your handwriting? only when not being rushed
26. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? yeah I suppose
27. Are you a daredevil? definitly, but not so much lately
28.. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? No
29. Do looks matter? not so much as the personality
30. How do you release anger? doing dishes or on this blog
31. Where is your second home? work
32. What was your favorite toy as a child? My cabage patch doll and raggedy ann and andy
33. What class in high school do you think was totally useless? spanish(didn't get it) loved French though
34. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Maybe a little too much.
35. Favorite movies? Cocktail, Grease, Speed, If these walls could talk too, all Drew Barrymoore and Sandra Bullock movies
36. What are your nicknames? Bre and honey(from my baby)
37. Would you bungee jump? heck yeah in a heart beat
38. Do you think that you are strong? Physically, a little, Inside, not at all.
39. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Mint Chocolate Chip
40. What are your favorite colors? purple and navy blue
41. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? my mind
42. Who do you miss the most? my grandma from when I was little
43. What color pants are you wearing? white shorts
44. What are you listening to right now? Monday Night Football Philly and Dallas
45. Last thing you ate? leftover Chillllli and crackers
46. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Perwinkle
47. Last person you talked to on the phone? my mom
48. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes/smile. Sense of humor.
49. Favorite Drink? Pepsi and RC cola
50. Do you wear contacts? nope
51. Favorite Day of the Year? Halloween
52. Scary Movies or Happy Endings? scary for sure but I love happy endings too
53. Hugs OR Kisses? Kisses
54. What Is Your Favorite Dessert? cheesecake
55. What Book(s) Are You Reading? People magazine right now. Haven't started a new book yet
56. What's On Your Mouse Pad? don't have one at the moment
57. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? Chapter 7 The End of the World
58. Favorite Smells? cucumber melon, thanksgiving/christmas dinner, sandlewood, cinnamon and so on........
59. Are you in a relationship right now? yes and lovin it
60. What's the furthest you've been from home? Germany